If I was to describe myself at this present time, I would not say I was doing well. I try to remind myself that our family has gone through a huge transition- we moved to another city, and are trying to establish new routines. There’s lots more commute time now, because the beasties still go to school in our old city.
I tell myself this, I tell myself to give it time, that new routines will be established. I should give myself the understanding that we are two full time working parents raising two toddlers. Is a 5 year old still a toddler? I’m going with it for the sake of this pity party for one.
Yet here I am, crying almost every night. Feeling so overwhelmed I don’t know what to do. By the end of the night there is no time or energy to spend with my ride or die, and I feel so lonely. I’m actually crying writing this. I’m stressed, ya’ll. Don’t say I didn’t warn you.
I could blame Keto, because we are back on the sauce (mostly, please keep me in your thoughts during this difficult time) and the amount of cooking I am doing reminds me why we ate out all the time.
I guess it’s everything. Lack of sleep, which is obviously the lot of every parent out there. It still sucks, and you never really get used to not being able to sleep BECAUSE IT ISN’T NATURAL CHILDREN ARE THE DEVIL.
Did I mention I had to get on the scale at the doctor the other day (nurse, you bitch) and I am the heaviest I think I have ever been. I’m putting this into the ethos because maybe some of you are struggling with weight like I do, and know that I get it. Hence the Keto. At this point I am giving up on exercise, because by the time I have time, I am too tired. Why don’t parents look like The Rock, with all the lifting and running around we do? I call bullshit.
So hello internet, here I am. Sleep deprived, lonely and stressed. What to do? Honestly, I don’t really know. Please send me your ideas, I am totally open to suggestions. I want to get back to feeling happy again, because we are on an adventure and I would like to enjoy the ride a little bit more.