Adulting is hard, guys.

So as I have mentioned, I have been working on opening my own Etsy store. I have been building up inventory, designing things to sell, getting business cards and getting ready to promote my brand. This has been going on for a month or two. Last night I was working on some designs and I realized something-

I don’t want to open an Etsy store anymore. I realized there is totally something to a job vs a hobby. I love designing things and making things for people. I love planning all the decorations for the kid’s birthday parties. I love being able to create something instead of having to buy it at the store.

I was losing that excitement in the stress of trying to get the store open. So I’m going to forget about the store and go back to doing what I love instead. So if you need party decorations- hit me up!

Does this count as an adulting situation? Feels like being a grown up to me.

Is 32 too early for an existential crisis? Asking for a friend.

Lies, I’m asking for myself. Lately I have been feeling so unsatisfied in my professional life. My personal life is great, my anxiety is taking a back seat and behaving itself lately, the kids are good and (mostly) not sick.

So of course per protocol this would be the time for me to be unhappy in my work life. I feel undervalued and unseen. I feel bored. There are so many things about myself I have learned lately- that I actually have hobbies and things I’m good at besides being a mom! We as working parents spend more time at work than at home, so to not feel like I’m getting much out of it is totally unacceptable. If I’m going to sacrifice time away from my babies and DadingWITHOUTanxiety, I want it to MEAN something. I want to feel seen and appreciated.

I think we all feel like that right? Because as parents we spend a lot of time being unseen, taking a backseat to the needs of the kids. However, I am finding it difficult to try and remedy this situation. Obviously the time for a career change is not when you have two kids under 5. So I’m doing my research and coming up with some side gigs in the meantime (Etsy store grand opening coming shortly!)

Burn some sage for me, guys. Cuz I’m way too young for a midlife crisis.